Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Momma......so many months. 6 to be exact and I continue to go to the phone to call you and tell you something; ask you something; get your advice. There is NO ONE who can advise me as you have always done and I am so lost right now...........I just need you badly. I hope you are having the time of your life with your Savior. Please please kiss daddy and kenny for me.....all the rest of my family as well. I still don't know what to say and Phil is worse off than I am. He is so lost in life. I truly happy you can never know this...........only good and wonderful happens where you are. No sadness, pain, sorrow.......................Just sittin here having a pity party with the stinkin' devil. It will be two years nest month that kenny went home. I'm so glad Phil and I spent every anniversary of daddys' going home, with you. The last one was so awful; you so sick and in pain and being made to get up and walk with that stupid walker..............I hate myself for not investigating that place beforehand.. the place that killed you before your time, but the state went after them so maybe they can never do that to anyone else, EVER. I am still full of so much guilt I can only glace at your pictures and look away immediately I am so ashamed of myself and guilty. My eyes should not be allowed to look upon you, your beauty. The loss of you is horrendous and I can only hope God will ease for Phil and me both soon. I LOVE YOU MOMMA. No one on this earth, in your generation, can ever hold up to who and what you were. I hope I will be able to make it to heaven to see all of you again. Posted by Beverly J Rogers - Charlotte, NC - daughter January 24, 2013