I am missing you alot tristan in the short time that i had to get to know you. I had seen a side of you that i am guessing very few had got to see. And we talked about alot of things like hiw she wanted to settle down with someone and have kids. She just kept saying her clock was ticking. And she just kept searching so hard for the right guy but she said she has not found him yet and that all the guys shes been seeing was only out for one thing and it was not to settle down. And she has tokd othiers in her family lies about me because she loved them so much and just wanted to be with them so she would tell them things about me that was not true. I had alway told her that if she needed help i would slways be there for her and many of night i had giving her a warm dry place to sleep and food in her belly. I had understood she was lost and trying so hard to find her way in life theres bern many that has miss understood her and has turned there backs on her. In witch had made her struggle with addiction that much harder for her. I understood what she was going threw because i to have had to fight that demon. And i tried very hard to make her see theres othier ways then turning back to it when things was not going the way she was wanting them to go. She wanted so badly to help everyoneweather she knew them or not. Anytime she was riding with me in a car and there was someone broke down she woukd always say we need to stop and hell them and it did not matter to her if we had to be somewhere by a certain time she did not care if we was late or not just as long as we stopped to help out. I can remember a few times that i wanted to have a drink but she had talked me out of itand thanks to her i still have not had a drink now in more then 5 years now! Thank you tristan for everything you had done for me and helping me not drink again when i really wanted a drink so badly they always said the first year is the hardest but for me that first five years was very hard and now i realize that i do not need a drink when things are not working out the best for me and i honestly do not even care about having a drink anymore or do i even want a drink anymore now. Thank you tristan fain you will always hold a special place in my heart and i will always remember you and the fun times we had togethier out on the lake in my boat or just out driving around to pass the time away. I love you and i am going to deeply miss you for i have lost a dear friend and conpanion.